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“Then; sir; listen。 You were from home last night?”
“I was: I know that; and you hinted a while ago at something which had happened in my absence:… nothing; probably; of consequence; but; in short; it has disturbed you。 Let me hear it。 Mrs。 Fairfax has said something; perhaps? or you have overheard the servants talk?— your sensitive self…respect has been wounded?”
“No; sir。” It struck twelve—I waited till the time…piece had concluded its silver chime; and the clock its hoarse; vibritting stroke; and then I proceeded。
“All day yesterday I was very busy; and very happy in my ceaseless bustle; for I am not; as you seem to think; troubled by any haunting fears about the new sphere; et cetera: I think it a glorious thing to have the hope of living with you; because I love you。 No; sir; don’t caress me now—let me talk undisturbed。 Yesterday I trusted well in Providence; and believed that events were working together for your good and mine: it was a fine day; if you recollect—the calmness of the air and sky forbade apprehensions respecting your safety or fort on your journey。 I walked a little while on the pavement after tea; thinking of you; and I beheld you in imagination so near me; I scarcely missed your actual presence。 I thought of the life that lay before me—your life; sir—an existence more expansive and stirring than my own: as much more so as the depths of the sea to which the brook runs are than the shallows of its own strait channel。 I wondered wh